Bob Rakestraw
“The Benediction
Project”
When I started “The Benediction Project” in the spring of
2007, I had two purposes in mind. First, the blog would serve to inform people
of my health condition, because so many were asking how I was doing since my
heart transplant of November, 2003. Many were praying for me and wanted
updates. And I very much needed their prayers.
Second, I desired to write materials that would be
encouraging, concerning matters that I thought (and hoped and prayed) would
bless and strengthen readers all over the world.
When I decided to call this new endeavor “The Benediction
Project,” I realized that the underlying project would have to be me—a project under
construction, a work in progress. The focus would be, however, on the
magnificent and compassionate Trinitarian God I love and serve: Father, Son and
Spirit.
I was well aware that if the blog was ever to be a blessing
to others I myself would need to ask God continually to make me into a living
benediction. I wanted to be, as I responded in faith and obedience to God’s
ongoing construction work, a benediction project in the flesh, while the blog,
flowing from God through me, would be a benediction project in writing.
The decision to start a blog was not a casual one. I felt an
urgency because I had just been told by two doctors that I probably had no more
than six months to live. Since my immune system had been fighting so hard to
reject this foreign object (my new heart) I now had a condition known as
chronic (permanent) transplant vasculopathy. The 18 or so arteries that
surround my heart and bring oxygenated blood to the heart tissue (it needs
fresh blood too) were being silently and steadily squeezed shut by the disease.
This, of course, would block all blood—and therefore all
oxygen—flowing to my heart. I would then have either one big heart attack or
several smaller ones, or both, and my heart and I would then die. There was
(and is) no medical means to overcome this disease other than a second heart
transplant, which I declined.
I was now in hospice care, but able to live at home. My new
sense of urgency to serve God arose out of the probable shortness of time I had
to live and out of my personal desire and need to keep busy with some
worthwhile project that would be an outlet for loving God and loving neighbor. As
it turned out God gave me two projects and two valuable assistants—one for each
project—to help Judy and me in these new tasks. Within a few weeks of being
placed in hospice care both projects were up and running.
Abigail Miller (now Sengendo) encouraged me to start a blog and offered to set it up and manage it. Thus began “The Benediction Project,” now completing five-and-a-half years.
Jane Spriggs then encouraged me to write the book on prayer
I had been considering but knew that I could not do without additional help.
Jane offered to provide the editorial assistance and by the end of 2007 we had
nearly completed Praying by the Spirit.
The book was published in 2008 by Christian Growth Ministries in the
Philippines. Jane and some very loyal friends revised it slightly and
re-formatted it and in 2010 we self-published it in the United States as Heart Cries. This is the book whose
cover appears at the top of this blog.
God has been pleased to bless others through both editions
of the book as well as “The Benediction Project.” Judy and I are very grateful
to God, and to Abigail, Jane and numerous others who have been, and continue to
be, valuable co-workers and supporters in my modest writing ministry. I
literally could not have this ministry without their encouragement, knowledge,
skills and desire to join me in advancing the reign of Jesus Christ over the
earth. Every day I struggle with health issues and the burden of life, and I so
greatly value the assistance of friends.
If the original supposition of the doctors had become
reality I would have gone home around the end of September, 2007. The doctors,
however, released me from hospice that November—five years ago—and this month I
celebrate my ninth transplant anniversary. I attribute my ongoing earthly life
to God’s sovereign power and wisdom, Judy’s consistently helpful and
understanding character, the prayers of very many (including some of you), the
knowledge and skills of several excellent doctors, the medications and
nutritional supplements I take, the personal encouragement and faithful labor
of family and friends, and the sense of purpose God gives me in writing.
I am now writing my life story—a spiritual autobiography
tentatively titled Grace Quest: A
Theologian’s Search for Salvation, Spirituality and the Strength to Suffer Well.
Since last year about this time I have been ably assisted in this new project
by Kim Olstad and her daughter Jessie. I thank God very much for their
encouragement and abilities. The book is approximately half finished and our
tentative target date for completion is November, 2013. I have no idea whether
I will live to finish the book, but I believe God wants me to continue working
on it. I am also planning other projects for the years ahead, as God gives me
the strength and the will.
Thank you for reading this piece of my personal history.
Somehow, somewhere, for some of you this brief essay will, I trust, be a
benediction—a blessing that will encourage you to move forward toward the
celestial city John Bunyan wrote about in Pilgrim’s
Progress.
Review some part of your personal history to create your own
thanksgiving story. At some point in the future—perhaps soon—you may have the
opportunity to bless someone with your account. You may not only encourage
others, but also encourage yourself. Rich blessings always to you from the One
through whom all blessings flow.
